You will forever give birth to yourself. There is no done, there is no finished, there is no complete. There is only the road, there is no destination. There will be points where you pause to reassess your direction, but these aren’t corrections as much as they are realizations. They are more expansion than improvement.
There are facts, and there is context. Until we see the fact in the context, we have no idea what we have engaged with. Once we have, we then have the necessary perspective from which to make decisions for the new person we have become as a result of the experience. This is a natural process and it is good to become comfortable with its unfolding.
An aspect of that unfolding will be dissatisfaction. This is a signal either that we are failing to fully engage with a subject, or that we have fully engaged with it to such a degree that we are ready to shift our consciousness to other things. But dissatisfaction does not mean that we have gone the wrong way in life—it means that we have gone as far in that direction as we were intended to go and we should increase our awareness toward finding what feels natural to the newly expanded You.
These stages of becoming wave through us in time and space. To mix some metaphors, we coast downhill, with wind in our sails and confidence in our gait. We smile easily and generosity comes naturally. But even chocolate gets unpleasant if we have too much of it. Caviar, wine, and even sex too. The nature of the universe is change. If we have the same experience for too long, our naturally creative nature urges us to expand.
As an ego, we unfold that experience as a narrative wherein we judge our life. We begin to question our direction, our intentions, our results. We imagine alternate histories and compare them to our Now. And for this we suffer. Such is the nature of life. Struggles to end suffering, followed by downhill coasts courtesy of expanded wisdom.
Be comfortable with the uncomfortable. Be okay with not being okay. Appreciate that part of finding oneself is that you must begin by being lost. And since you will find several selves during your lifetime, you will also become lost several times. So don’t turn that experience into some giant identity-creating story. Even if it’s a huge event, leave it where it is. Do not drag it forward in time with your thinking. The sooner you let the weight of that story go, the sooner you can float upward into where you have the space to be the wiser and stronger You.
Do not lament the ebb and flow of life. Without one you would not know the other any more than you could see these words without the white background. That is the Yin and Yang of life. Relax into it. Don’t argue with it. Feel the pain knowing it will pass as your thinking changes.
You don’t need to struggle against life. Yes its flow will naturally bring you into the rocks occasionally. But that’s still far less painful than swimming upstream for the entirety of your existence.
Stop thinking. Float on your inner silence. Listen to the universe around you and it will share its secrets. You’re always welcome there.