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I have a client who learned about reality the hard way. As you read this, it is important that you remember that she is a very nice person. She came to me with her husband almost ten years ago. She felt their marriage was lacking. When I asked her what sort of issues had arisen and when and why, she said that it really had always existed but she was simply worn out and tired of it. She didn’t want to accommodate it anymore—she needed her husband to change.
He was sitting right there, but I asked her to describe her husband to me. She gave a couple of perfunctory compliments, and then she talked about how he lacked drive and motivation to “better their family.” He was too content with where they were at. I asked if he holds doors open for people. She said yes. Did he speak kindly to street people? Unfortunately yes, she told me. Was he an angry or violent person? She adamantly said no—if anything he was too passive, including in bed. How was he as a father? She wasn’t entirely confident, but she would give him that the boys loved him a lot. He sure didn’t take care of the things on the lists she gave him though.
Sitting there that day he was on very good behaviour, you could tell. I asked him to describe his wife and he gave a couple sincere compliments about how she helped keep him organized, and how he thought she was a good influence on their kids. And then he apologized for not having the same drive and determination around work that some of his friends and co-workers have. His wife then listed those people and the increases they had achieved in their salaries or job status in the time she and her husband had been together.
Now I can and have taught lots of people to truly, deeply and actively love their current life and who they are. And they often do make all sorts of changes that are seen as good in the ego world too. But cheetahs run and turtles crawl, and so this is where I cut my own salary short and simply tell people that I can’t turn their loved ones into completely different people. What I do isn’t so much about change as it is acceptance. I mean, think about it: how awesome is it that you get the feeling you’re seeking without actually having to do all of the work to be someone else? Instead you get to just realize that you were awesome the whole time!
Okay, so back to the couple. He is who he is so she eventually leaves. He doesn’t ever date again. He’s not bitter but he’s definitely suffering with a broken heart. She almost immediately dated a very successful professional, but he turned out to be a stalker. Two years gone. A few years after that and she connected with a wealthy British businessman. At first she loved the lavish lifestyle and the attention he showered on her, but over time the cheetah got back to cheetah-ing and he wasn’t so available because his empire needed tending. Also, he was aggressive, he had a regular temper and he could be mean. Of course our personalities are chemical addictions in a way, so the same thing that gave him a temper also gave him the drive that allowed him to be so successful in business.
Once, when they were outside a restaurant with another couple she felt horribly embarrassed when he and the other man made fun of an injured beggar. In the end her trappings were nicer, but her life as a set of experiences was much less pleasant than with her husband. And the rich guy eventually left her for a younger woman anyway. Boom. A decade gone and it wasn’t even a lot of fun.
Now this woman had sons, but imagine if she had a daughter. Can you imagine listening to her give that little girl a talk on how to find a good man? “Okay, if you find a guy that’s kind and patient and caring and helpful, a guy who thinks you’re great and loves his own life, you cast that guy aside and you go get a driven, aggressive, work-first wealthy man who has a nice house and cars but who will treat you like property. Got it?” It’s nuts. And while the language is fancied up to make it sound less egotistical, you hear mothers coaching their daughters this way every single day in your supermarket lineups. Remember, the show wasn’t Who Wants to Marry a Nice Guy Who Loves You? It was “Who Wants to Marry a Millionaire?”
Oh she gets it now. It was actually her request that I write this. She’s got a friend about to do the same thing she did and she wants to print this off and leave it on her desk at work. She’s tried to warn her. She explained how, after a decade of dating and having it not work over and over, she’s come to the realization that not everyone is ambitious about being kind like her husband was. That it shouldn’t be taken for granted that someone is Present and Grateful. And that the skills her husband had are all too uncommon.
So guy or girl, appreciate who you’re with. If you’re doing that and you are able to see the awesomeness within the person and you still don’t think it’s the right match for your life, then that’s how you know to move on. You have nothing against them, you just know there’s a better fit. But don’t leave them for ego-based reasons. You know a good fit based on your daily life experiences and not abstract values like wealth, popularity, or appearance. If someone gift wraps you a life of kindness and love, don’t turn it away because you don’t think the box is tall enough or because you don’t think the wrapping paper is shiny enough.
For his part, it’s-a-shame-though-not-surprising that such a kind and caring man would now be defensive and therefore alone. When I’m hearing about truly dangerous husbands I often think back to this fellow as one of the three sanest, kindest and warmest clients I’ve ever had. And in an ego-less world, that guy would be a king. And that’s the point. She missed that. And she was really hoping that if she got me to write this, that some of you wouldn’t make the same mistake. So there you go.
Enjoy your day.
Following a serious childhood brain injury Scott McPherson unwittingly spent his entire life meditating on the concepts of thought, consciousness, reality and the self. This made him as strange to others as they were to him. Seeing the self-harm people created with their own overthinking, Scott dedicated part of his life to helping others live with greater awareness. He is currently a writer, speaker and mindfulness instructor based in Edmonton, AB, where he finds it strange to write about himself in the third person.