People assume that once they know how to lead an enlightened life that they will not struggle or face the same serious adversities that they do. But of course all lives include challenges that are far too heavy to be lifted by one person alone. No amount of understanding can handle that.
The understanding removes the resistance to the experience, not the experience itself. Even with the ability to witness my thinking and recover quickly from a lot of things, like anyone, friends are profoundly important to me. And no more so than when things are at their worst.
All lives includes both Yin and Yang and during difficult times any healthy person will lean on others heavily.
When we’re young we imagine our life like a graph that constantly rises as we age. We imagine more freedom, more money, more prestige, more success. When we are young there is no outside world, there is only a strong sense of self.
But when we’re young we don’t have the experience to see the secret clues around us. We don’t really looking very closely at what’s going on around us —we’ve just gained autonomy and we’re busy doing what we’re doing.
While we’re having that experience, we just notice that we feel more independent as we’ve aged so we imagine that trajectory continuing. In fact we never really were all that independent and regardless, what we are almost sure to encounter is forms of increased dependency.
If we did stop to look we would see that many of the menial workers around us are seniors. Did we imagine we would be sweeping up at McDonald’s when we were 60? And despite a 50% divorce rate, did any of us assume that somehow we wouldn’t encounter the often overwhelming expense of family law?
Did we think we would never be ripped off by an employer, experience crime, or an addiction? Or learn that we may spend decades nursing either a sick parent or a child or ourselves? Do we think cancer was only for other people?
We walk past these people every day and yet we never imagine we will be them. When we imagine our lives we imagine perfect TV lives —lives without hassles, or if they are hassles, they can be neatly sorted in as little as half an hour.
But that is an impossible idea. So it hurts when a more realistic reality hits. But salvation comes when we stop resisting painful experiences as though they do not belong to us. Salvation comes when we fully accept that our life, like every life, will have those heavy days.
When we’re young we make friends easily and school sees us surrounded by many people we call ‘friends’ even though most are merely only classmates. As we move through our 20’s we gather even more friends through either college, university or our first jobs.
Younger people often have more time available than anyone, so we’re able to see those people often at places like bars and parties and on weekends at beaches.
As we mature and gain experience, we are given more responsibility at work. With that goes more money, but that generally gets us to buy things like cars or homes. But while those may be nice things to own, they also represent even more responsibility. We can’t un-like your banker and just stop paying our mortgage. That’s a long term relationship.
The same with our responsibilities at work. When we’re young we come home after work and then we go out. When we’re older we come home later and we often bring work with us whether we want to or not, because it’s a competitive job market in many fields.
Eventually for many there’s likely children too, so we don’t come home to fun and relaxation, we come home to the greatest responsibility we will ever have —the responsibility of teaching a fellow human being everything it needs in order to survive without us.
Of course, because children take a lot of time energy and money, around our 30’s we start seeing our friendship circles drastically shrink simply due to a shortage of time. We still say we have lots of friends. But we don’t really stop to notice that we only see them here and there. We might be fond of them, but that lack of presence can see inactive friendships becoming acquaintances
It’s almost as though when we’re young we’re in the harbour near lots of other little boats and when we first leave all of the boats are fairly near each other. But as we sail through life and we chart our own course we eventually find that there are only a few other boats that we could say are genuinely close to ours, and that is primarily because they are on complimentary courses.
Even the people sailing in our direction will sometimes still need to tack against the wind at different times than us. So for periods of time, even boats going the same direction can appear to be going completely different directions.
We don’t need to panic about those periods. We’ll still always be close to those particular friends because –individual routes aside– we are all at least fundamentally travelling in the same direction, and that ultimately has more to do with our characters than our histories.
We call all of the people we collect through life our “friends” and that’s fine as a term. But we should not be mistaken about the true nature of friendship. Because acquaintances are mostly what we have. That’s not a disappointment. That’s how humans naturally prefer it.
In the end, friends are the people that are ready, willing and able to sail through the roughest seas with us. They are the ones who we turn to in the middle of our personal storms. And even if we don’t turn to them, they will turn to us.
What’s important to remember is that these are the times when we have the least to give. When life is presenting us with steep and overwhelming challenges is precisely when we will be low on energy, low on patience, our health might be bad, and all of that means we are simply less fun to be around.
We may be short of money, we may need a lot of physical help, and we will almost certainly be exhausted by just the sheer weight of moving through the experience. Life will deal some hard blows to all of us and when we’re in the midst of that we will be at our worst.
When we’re run down we will be impatient and demanding and often unrewarding to spend time with. At these times we won’t have much to offer our friends. And so that is when we will find out who the friends truly are. Because they know who we really are.
The simple fact is that most people will abandon us if we add weight to their lives. They’re present because it’s fun, rewarding and enriching. But when the relationship starts to get taxing, that’s when most people will disappear.
The boats too far away from us will not sail over to rescue us when that distance exists. They are too far away to appreciate the intensity of our personal storm. Only the boats very close to us will have an awareness of, and an appreciation for, the challenges we are having in merely keeping our boat afloat at all.
At these times we will often be harsh with those who are helping us most. Our fears and desperation will bring out the worst in us. And that will scare the timid, youthful, and weak away. And that is perfectly fine, because that leaves room for the broad shoulders of those who remain with us through these unrewarding parts of life: when we need rides, or emergency childcare, or someone to push our wheelchair, or loan us money.
That is when the friends are fully known. That is when our perspective rises high enough that we can see which boats are truly with us. These are the boats that will provide the rafts and ropes and life preservers that will keep us going until our storm passes, as we will do for them.
Even in the thick of it, our friends will be there with us, bailing and facing the lashing rains, and otherwise dedicating themselves to our lives as much as their own.
Those friends are our tribe. Those friends take us over the long haul. Those friends calculate our value differently. They don’t need us to always be bringing something to their life. They will also be fine with taking something from their own.
Sometimes we are married to these people, sometimes we are related, but often times our connection is entirely voluntary. And it is that very quality that makes it so beautiful.
Like everyone, I have faced my own hard and heavy times. Because I know how to live this way does not mean that I do not face the same challenges that every life has. It merely means I face those challenges from a different perspective —a perspective that primarily focuses on an appreciation for what is, rather than a want for what is not.
In the deepest and darkest of our storms, the lights of the closest boats shine even brighter. And in those times, if often becomes very easy to appreciate how remarkably valuable they are to our journey. For without them, none of us would ever make it.
Let’s take a moment today to appreciate the boats nearest to ours. Whether life is currently great or whether it’s mired in a storm so dark that we can barely make out the lights of those nearby boats, we must keep sight of the fact that they are there regardless.
They are there by their own nature. And there will never be any way to repay the many ways in which our friends will rescue us —the ways that impact our heart and our soul. Instead what will happen is that the tempests eventually lift. The lightning burns itself out and the rain cries down all its tears.
What remains —sparkling and glinting in the sun— are the boats we clung to when things were at their worst. And they will appear to us as the most remarkable things we have ever seen. And we will realize that words do not even exist for us to describe the breadth and depth of their incredible beauty.
A serious childhood brain injury lead Scott to spend his entire life meditating on the concepts of thought, consciousness, reality and identity. It made others as strange to him as he was to them. When he realized people were confused by their own over-thinking, Scott began teaching others to understand reality. He is currently CBC Radio Active’s Wellness Columnist, as well as a writer, speaker and mindfulness instructor based in Edmonton, AB where he still finds it strange to write about himself in the third person.
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Friends are like ships passing through the night. If you want to hold on to friends in life, relax and hold on to living in the moment. The rest will follow!